Yeah...so I'm not dead, my god I'm so sorry you were worried I was dead. I was/am really depressed, but not dead.
Secret Identities kind of fizzled out (I felt too bad about it to say anything at the time, and then I just tried to pretend it didnt exist), and I haven't really been doing much writing. A short story once every couple of months, a few fanfics. I did participate in Nanowrimo, but it was awful. I finished, but I produced nothing of merit or worth sharing. I sold some porn over the summer...I think it's going to be published in June.
I've been guilt-ridden about my cats for the last 10 months, I finally got a terrible job that I want to kill myself over some days, and I don't really like where I'm living now. New town, no friends outside of work, that kind of thing. My foreclosure is still unresolved...and so on.
I'm really sorry. My life is an absolute mess, and while I've always had depression, it's been worse this past year. I know I owe it to both you guys and my characters to get back on the story and finish it. I hope that someday I will.
The best place to keep track of me (at the moment) is under the name CreamLemon on fanfiction.net This profile is connected to my main email so I'll get any messages you send from there.
I'm sorry.
