Yeah...so I'm not dead, my god I'm so sorry you were worried I was dead. I was/am really depressed, but not dead.
Secret Identities kind of fizzled out (I felt too bad about it to say anything at the time, and then I just tried to pretend it didnt exist), and I haven't really been doing much writing. A short story once every couple of months, a few fanfics. I did participate in Nanowrimo, but it was awful. I finished, but I produced nothing of merit or worth sharing. I sold some porn over the summer...I think it's going to be published in June.
I've been guilt-ridden about my cats for the last 10 months, I finally got a terrible job that I want to kill myself over some days, and I don't really like where I'm living now. New town, no friends outside of work, that kind of thing. My foreclosure is still unresolved...and so on.
I'm really sorry. My life is an absolute mess, and while I've always had depression, it's been worse this past year. I know I owe it to both you guys and my characters to get back on the story and finish it. I hope that someday I will.
The best place to keep track of me (at the moment) is under the name CreamLemon on fanfiction.net This profile is connected to my main email so I'll get any messages you send from there.
I'm sorry.
Heyla...
ReplyDeleteI had wondered what happened to you, whether it was just writer's block or something more serious. It is good to know how things stand with you, I just wish it were not such a negative place. -patpat-
Hope things get better for you,
-Alyxe
Hope things get better..cheers!!!
ReplyDeleteYou've sure had a lot to put up with and this story should be the least of your worries. You know, I do feel like the story came to some kind of a resolution at this point, coincidentally maybe. After the events of the rescue all three characters are in a different place in terms of their personal outlook and relationships to each other. It could at least be an end of a Part 1, leaving lots of potential for a Part 2 in the future if things work out.
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